Get Ready, Eddie

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Here’s the Deal

I should niche down. Everybody—every blogger, businessman, their mamas, and their mamas’ mamas will tell you to niche down. Focus. Specialize. I know. I’ve read it, have heard it a zillion times from a zillion different resources. If someone were to come to me saying they wanted to start a blog I’d advise them to do the same thing. But… I just don’t want to do it.

I Want it All

I’m by nature an ambitious and curious little creature with a fuck-ton of interests outside of my domestic divadom1This term is used with the loosest of definitions. That’s really why I started this site in the first place, to keep a connection with the woman I am. The woman who enjoys learning, the woman who is fascinated by storytelling and the amazing people who breathe life into those tales, the woman who hopes when she leaves this world her story will have been something worth reading.

When I go and it’s time for Editorial Eddie to write up my epitaph, when he’s through banging it out on his weird-ass little holographic keyboard on his self-sanitizing desk in his neat little partitioned cubicle, I want that motherfucker to be so deliriously dizzy with inspiration he goes directly to his boss and tells him to fuck straight the fuck off, and he goes out into the world and chases some damn dreams.

I DO THIS FOR MY DAMN SELF.

BUT I ALSO DO THIS FOR EDDIE. 

Cheers, my friend.

I hope my finish line is your start.

NaRoWriMo 11-27-20

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As I’m sitting here waiting for Amelia to respond—she’s offered me a “fun” project to get my creative juices flowing (I was complaining, which is putting it lightly, about feeling creatively blocked yet simultaneously ready to DO and MAKE; it’s incredibly frustrating).

As it turns out, she’s tasked me with making her dear, sweet doggo look evil. I don’t know if it’s possible. He looks like the doofiest sweetheart in the world from the pictures I’ve seen. BUT that’s definitely a challenge wrapped up in a pretty bow of learning new techniques using Affinity Photo. Please do take the liberty of imagining me doing a happy dance (because I’m a nerd like that).

It’s creation.

It’s educational.

It’s a writing procrastination enabler.

Love it.

BTW, I know I didn’t keep up with NaRoWriMo, but shit happened and priorities changed. Sorry not sorry. I did mentally flog myself for not sticking to the goal for a few days, honestly, BUT then I realized that instead of trying to spread myself so thin that I wouldn’t be bringing my best to the table given the particular circumstances, I made a mature decision involving knowing my limits. Go me.

I could’ve popped in, though, to at least give a heads-up that I wasn’t going to continue with NaRoWriMo, though, and for THAT I do apologize. My bad. Sorry for that.

AnyWho… I hope everyone had a lovely Thanksgiving yesterday—ours was relatively uneventful, but that’s not a bad thing. Eventful usually means a trip to the hospital. No, thank you.

Deuces.

~Me

NaRoWriMo 11/08/20

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Sunday, Sunday, Sunday!

Good evening (well, it’s 10:39 PM…whatever)!

The day’s been long and filled with fuckery.

I feel tired but I am determined to keep up with my month’s writing goal of showing up here daily to drop a ramble. Sorry if the series isn’t anything of particular substance, but that wasn’t really the point of it. I greatly appreciate all of you who give me a little bit of your time when you come here, who are willing to witness my process as I’m working towards disciplining myself into a more productive writing habit.

I didn’t set a specific word count goal or a writing time goal.

Just. Show. Up.

Write.

Don’t overanalyze. Don’t obsess over “perfection.” Just write and be willing to write like shit.

This is the goal.

Until tomorrow.

Goodnight.

NaRoWriMo 11/07/20

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Election 2020 Results

Biden.

A couple of friends messaged me to tell me. I haven’t been on social media much at all, but the quick peek I took seemed very celebratory.

On the other hand, The Husband tells me that many people working in the oil industry, which is the heart of the economy here, are concerned for their livelihoods. Hearing that does hurt my heart. There’s already talk of jobs being cut and its going to impact a lot of families, possibly mine by the time it comes down.

We shall see.

On Social Anxiety and Yesterday’s Visit

My visit with Eff yesterday, although it was so good to see her, had me tied up in anxiety. Big Dislike. I’m very out-of-practice with the peopleing, as I’m sure many people are, given the COVID-19 ish, but oof. I have to get out more. I have to try to work more with K on mask-wearing so she can get out more. This is no good for us.

Working with K will take time and be a long process.

Me, maybe I can try to hit up some meetings in-person. Multi-task that business. I haven’t hit up any online meetings in a bit; the internet here is so shaky at times and the streams just buffer away, so it frustrated me and I stopped attending. I’m still alcohol-free and coming up on my 1 year here in a few days, but I need to do better to take care of myself in that regard. I remember hearing a speaker tape once that called AA meetings free therapy, and it’s truth. The successful online streams I’ve been able to attend have been amazing and I’m so grateful for finding them.

I have friends who are fantastic in supporting me throughout my nonsense, and I try to reciprocate and be there for them, as well, but nobody understands addiction like addicts. And I can’t be there for my friends and family to support them as they deserve if I’m not taking care of myself. It’s that whole “you can’t pour from an empty cup” deal.

To my loved ones who I’ve been distant from, I’m sorry. I’m trying to figure it out.

I love you.

NaRoWriMo 11-06-20

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Today will be a micro-post. Went to see a friend, and while it was good to seem them and I’m deeply appreciative of their hospitality, I found myself too anxious to be decent company and conversation for them. I haven’t been out much in the last few months, maybe a handful of times, if that, and my people skills are definitely rusty.

Sorry, friend. I hope to be better company next time.

I’m tired.

Goodnight, readers.

NaRoWriMo 11-05-20

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Big Supernatural Episode Tonight!

Not watching it. LOL

Not because I’m boycotting it, though, I just don’t have live TV anymore. I’ll try to hit it up tomorrow, but honestly I’m so far behind in what’s been going down on the show; after they did my boy dirty like they did…smh. Mmmm mmmm mmmm.

My friendos feed me spoilers, so I do still have some sense of what’s up there.

Anywho, from what I’ve heard about what’s gone down on the episode tonight…OOF. How we doing, SPNFamily? Sending love and heart-healing vibes out for y’all. I can make you some tea, if you like. ~It’s been about a half an hour since I wrote this paragraph and just received another update. I don’t know if I want to watch the episode, y’all. Who’s going to make me tea?

Underland has Gone…Well, Under

I pulled the Underland story down off the site (what little I had up, at any rate). Someone I respect deeply messaged me to throw me some love regarding what they’d read of it so far, and was under the impression it was a children’s story. That input gave me a LOT to chew on regarding its direction—I’d not intended for it to be a children’s story, but after reading their message I can see how it might give that impression. Whether I’ll keep it in its intended direction or switch gears I’m not sure of yet, but either way there are aspects of it that need altered to fall more in line with what genre and audience I would hope to read it.

I just don’t know. Sigh.

Speaking of Genre and Audience

I wonder if the comic-style logo and feel of the site might need switched up? When I started out I’d imagined changing out the logo and feel periodically to have different fandom themes, but the vision wasn’t (at least at that point) realistic. There are only so many hours in a day and I tend to spread my focus out a bit thin without someone there to guide me. I need a handler! LOL

I Need to People

The Husband has been off working a lot. Love him and deeply appreciate him for working so hard for our family, but it gets lonely. Especially with the year being filled with all the fuckery. K and I are going to pop over to a friend’s to visit tomorrow evening. I’m looking forward to it. I went out and met Holliday for coffee a couple of weeks ago while K was in school and that really lifted my spirit. We had a great time. We laughed, we caffeinated, we conquered the Big Sad. Good stuff. Can’t wait to lay my peepers on Ms. Eff’s beautiful mug tomorrow and catch up with her. I’m sure it will be just as great a visit. And we will be safe. <3

NaRoWriMo 11-04-20

Status

Time: 7:45 PM

Mood: Ehhhh.

Find Me in My DMs

I’m mostly trying to avoid social media (all of the eek), but I’m around in DMs or text messages if you want to hit me up (this is directed at my people—you know who you are). Amelia, I’ve tried to message you a few times with no response. I’m worried, my dude. Let me know you’re ok.

Today’s Graphic

The day was relatively uneventful, so I’ll blather on briefly about today’s graphic design image. Modeled after a graphic design tutorial I found on YouTube (but not actually followed technically, meaning I didn’t actually watch the video and follow along), I was shooting for that “classier” look.

The Font: Serifs are Classy AF

I opted for a serif font and adjusted the tracking, which is a term for widening the spaces of lettering—this is both demonstrated in the example and is also a technique recommended by the woman I’m taking design classes under online (she’s a gem; loves her).

The Photo: Free

The laptop, phone, & coffee cup image was provided by Kevin Bhagat over at Unsplash. Unsplash is a great site to grab some free images from if you don’t have a keen photographer’s eye or the cash to buy stock photos. It’s also a great place for photographers and graphic designers to gain a little exposure and network a bit. Maybe I’ll take a run at working up a little something to throw over there one day.

The Result

A simple, clean, and classy looking cover image (or at least I like to think so). Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery and you can find some great examples of design online and in the analogue world EVERYWHERE (but don’t forget to show some love and props to the original creators when appropriate).

In Other News

Tomorrow is my homie Ingrid’s birthday tomorrow! Happy early birthday, my dude! (And sorry for my homies whose birthdays have already passed that I haven’t thrown shout-outs for—it’s been a jacked year and I’ve been slacking. I suck and I will try to do better by you).

That’s all I’ve got for now, so I’ll holler at you later!

P.S. Drop me a comment below with your thoughts on today’s (or any other day’s designs)! I’d eventually like to start up designing services, so any feedback is greatly appreciated. 🙂

Behave yourselves.

Kisses

NaRoWriMo 11-03-20 Part 2

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Status

Time: 9:36 PM

Mood: Absolute Shit

BUT I’m back. Briefly. Been peeking at the election coverage off and on and I’m friggin’ exhausted.

I kicked The Husband out of the house for a majority of the night because we differ vastly regarding politics. Didn’t stop him from texting and calling to harass me about the election ish. Soooo mature.

On a Lighter Note

K left her jacket behind at school last week, so when the temperature dropped earlier this week I had to send her to school on Monday layered up in one of my smaller hoodies. She looked ADORABLE in it and she really seemed to like wearing it (whereas she’ll try to strip off her jackets or coats almost immediately).

Around a half an hour past the school day start I received a text from her teacher confirming that she was indeed super-cozy donning that bad boy. My mini-me! Heh! Loves me some oversized hoodies. Always have.

Years ago, when K first started seeing an occupational therapist we had a discussion one day about how I identified with a lot of what I’d been reading about Autistic traits and behaviors in my research. The OT laughed. Hard. Not in a bitchy manner, mind you. It was very much an, “Oh, honey,” laugh.

One of the things she pointed out that she’d noticed about me was that I dress effectively to self-regulate in a sensory manner, favoring to wear layers, big ol’ wide-leg jeans (hello, Jnco, I miss you), and oversized hoodies. I’ve dressed that way for years. Basically, I’m walking around in a self-fashioned weighted blanket on the regular. LOL

So it makes sense that K would dig the oversized hoodie bit. We’ll have to look into buying her some more. Sidebar: Sheppard should seriously consider adding some kid-sized merch when he hooks up his next campaign. K has stolen my Miss Me fitted T on more than one occasion.

NaRoWriMo 11-03-20 Pt 1

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Good morning (as I’m typing this; the clock will probably tick over while I’m writing, but eh)!

Election Day 2020

Did you get out to vote yet? I went out first thing this morning and hit up the polls as soon as they opened. Our community is small and so there wasn’t a long wait, which was nice. Anxiety is definitely riding high—you can see it all over social media (which I’m really trying to limit checking today. If your nerves are up, I suggest you do the same, and maybe consider muting the term polls.

That’s all for the moment, but I’ll hit the site back up with a part 2 later. Just wanted to make sure I knocked out a little something, no matter how small, for NaRoWrimo 2020 today.

For now, I return to housework and such.

Be good and be well.

And GO VOTE!

NaROWriMo 11-02-20

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This picture is an accurate representation of my day.

That is all.

I Lost My Shoe; image of broken sole
I Lost My Shoe / Broken Sole