Election 2020 Results
A couple of friends messaged me to tell me. I haven’t been on social media much at all, but the quick peek I took seemed very celebratory.
On the other hand, The Husband tells me that many people working in the oil industry, which is the heart of the economy here, are concerned for their livelihoods. Hearing that does hurt my heart. There’s already talk of jobs being cut and its going to impact a lot of families, possibly mine by the time it comes down.
We shall see.
On Social Anxiety and Yesterday’s Visit
My visit with Eff yesterday, although it was so good to see her, had me tied up in anxiety. Big Dislike. I’m very out-of-practice with the peopleing, as I’m sure many people are, given the COVID-19 ish, but oof. I have to get out more. I have to try to work more with K on mask-wearing so she can get out more. This is no good for us.
Working with K will take time and be a long process.
Me, maybe I can try to hit up some meetings in-person. Multi-task that business. I haven’t hit up any online meetings in a bit; the internet here is so shaky at times and the streams just buffer away, so it frustrated me and I stopped attending. I’m still alcohol-free and coming up on my 1 year here in a few days, but I need to do better to take care of myself in that regard. I remember hearing a speaker tape once that called AA meetings free therapy, and it’s truth. The successful online streams I’ve been able to attend have been amazing and I’m so grateful for finding them.
I have friends who are fantastic in supporting me throughout my nonsense, and I try to reciprocate and be there for them, as well, but nobody understands addiction like addicts. And I can’t be there for my friends and family to support them as they deserve if I’m not taking care of myself. It’s that whole “you can’t pour from an empty cup” deal.
To my loved ones who I’ve been distant from, I’m sorry. I’m trying to figure it out.
I love you.